The Time Has Come

It has finally come down to this.

I met with my specialist yesterday to discuss the progress with the Mirena & how it has not agreed with my body & mind AT ALL. I have been in pain in some capacity every day since I had it put in. I think I have had 3 days since the 15th January where I didn’t bleed or spot.

Mentally, I have experienced some of the darkest days I have ever had. Very low moods, sensitive & emotional, lacking motivation & energy.

So due to these side effects & further discussions with Dr Sunny, I am booked in for a full hysterectomy on 1st April (leaving my ovaries).

I don’t quite know how I feel to be honest, but I know that I cannot continue to suffer like this until I reach menopause.

There is a lot to process between now & then. My ability to have a child will be completely taken away from me as a result of this. That is not lost on me & it scares the hell out of me. I know it’s not going to happen naturally or via assisted reproductive methods as we’ve been down those paths before. However the finality of all this brings about a new level of mental anguish & pain to work through.

I’ve made an appointment with my psychologist & I will be documenting my surgery & recovery for those that are interested or sharing it with those who it may help in their own journey.